Playing at home is a different matter

This is what I can describe as "pure joy".



This is the regular high in my day- Often less intense because the playing is more demanding, the allotment is another. The low, and it can be very low, often happens at 3 am in the morning. I sail up and down between high and low. I feel as though I pay for the highs by experiencing the lows. Objectively I believe that's a fair deal. I prefer to be like this than chugging along on the 'level' as others can. We're all different. On the other hand the lows of some are incredibly low and a nightmare for several weeks at a time: I only hope that they at times experience a high to compensate.